I
knew that I can’t hold you back.
I
knew that I can’t be with you.
I
knew that I can’t do all this with you.
I
knew that I can’t achieved all this with you.
But
still I can’t stop from ringing your cell phone to talk about.
I
can’t stop from talking to you.
I
can’t stop from sharing things with you.
I
can’t stop from letting you know of my every moments.
I
can’t stop from being myself knowing inside out with you.
I
can’t stop from missing you always.
You
know now that I missed you always.
You
know I am known inside out for you.
You
know many things about me that I am so sure of.
You
know almost everything about me.
You
know at least I am loving you still and also.
You
know no possibilities of continuing relationship between us.
You
know in fact there is no relationship between us.
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But
still I knew you hate me not.
So
I believe.
Our
relationship do exist.
But
it can’t be for so long.
Our
connections may exist for long and forever.
But
it can’t be as same as before
And
no better than today.
At
the end when everything known and understood in silence.
I
can’t stop from shedding tears.
Tears
in fear of losing you.
Though
I know I don’t have any hope.
Hope
that can’t exist at all.
Why
this things are so strange?
May
be I am becoming absurd.
May
be awkwardness of my fate has come to its time.
May
not be that but still regret can’t be.
For
I know I can’t only blame myself for my deeds.
I
can’t blame you anyway.
Why
am scribbling all these nonsense?
May
be am losing control over my emotion.
You
stop talking to me and cut the cell phone.
I
knew something happens to you for sure.
And
that’s the truth I finally knew about from silence in strange.
And
this is the truth that hurts me not.
Because
I knew it this will be the truth.
The
truth of true love.
Which
hurdled made it impossible.
But
time and silence made it understandable.
And
am agonized by my love.
Am
sad and sad and sad……
