Saturday, March 18, 2017

Single thought can change your life

I have been into deeper thoughts quite often as I keep on planning for my future. I wanted to become efficient environmentalist, researcher, professor, architect, and carpenter as I liked so much playing around with woods and use newer technologies related to it. I wanted to build models and make furniture for my house. Such thoughts lingers in me for long and sometimes I even dream of building my house by myself. I wanted everything to be unique that will eventually prove that I have learn engineering. 

The great passion I have for my career let me not stop thinking to become professor and that’s my ultimate target in life. I will be happy and my parents will be proud. I found doing research is the best way to learn and create new ideas and techniques that will also paved way towards becoming a professor. Becoming an expert in the field of environment being a fond lover of what everything nature does and appreciate what is possess will perhaps make me efficient environmentalist. Not only this, I was even thinking of my grand marriage party, fascinating new cars, mountain bikes and list goes on. Indeed, I was dreaming a lot and just wishing if I have 36 hours instead of 24 hours a day, I may get it all done. 

After all this, a single final thought changed my mind. 
This is how I imagine my office to be in future
I was too selfish in dreaming, if it really is going to happen. May not happen because people of my age already prove be done with it. However, this are all just thoughts. I was selfish because I almost forgot to include the welfare, dreams and happiness of my parents and family. I realized that their hard work in last twenty years has been invested in me and now within few years into career was about to ruin my thoughts. 

What if my thoughts are to invest in them for rest of my life? 

They have invested in my career that brought me happiness, and now it’s my turn to invest in their happiness. What will bring them the happiness that they have never achieved before? I know they don’t expect much but I should make it happen. This should be my thoughts and dreams of priority henceforth. So I changed my mind and that changed me and will changed my attitude too. Will wait and see what magical things happen next. Until then, live a happy present day life because it’s all times well known saying that past are gone, future is yet to come, so everything that u do today matters.

Glimmer of choice

Quite often I get confused with my own choice of interest for further studies; subject of specialization. Sometimes I feel it is not compulsory for me to decide one, because I can choose any subject to study at any time wherever needed. On the contrary, this may not gain me enough confident in any area as I gear up through my career and finally land up being skeptical and less useful. Yes, this is the time when I have given multiple thought and some wage idea draws my attention closer. Wage idea of having numerous choices and having gathered sufficient reasons about why I should study this and that. Is it because it will finally give me Ph.D., or am I really interested at getting one? Is it because I am already learning it, or it is because it’s for the good cause? Or maybe simply no reason. It is certain that I cannot say I am interested, when I am actually searching for my interest. 

I noted few things and try giving reasons too. Urban Planning? Because I have major in civil engineering, or Bhutan is just developing and need more planning or may be because I am GIS student. Then it strikes me with another; Watershed Management, because Bhutan is built out of beautiful and in fact the best watersheds. May be I can also choose Flood control or Landslide, just because it’s a major calamities in hilly terrain landscape like Bhutan. Another thoughts in my mind; Environment or Environment Conservation. Then it extend over watersheds, flood and so on that I have mentioned. Wait, it’s becoming complicated and more confusing. I need to be specific. May be I should choose Environment. So that I don’t have to go for conservation to be limited sometimes. Why not be specifically specific again? Environment is a broad subject.
Indicates the power of nature
Nevertheless, without thinking much, let it be Environment. It’s fine. Let it be broad. So, to proceed, let’s start from root level, for example; grass, forest cover, plant species, animals, water, snow and glacier. Geospatial approach in all area. Including theories, developing new algorithm, and new equations. Begins with studying its state, conditions and so on. Then followed by conservation techniques. It should be of national concern. 

What I hate about studying is when no flexibility of time is offered. If I don’t get enough time to collect data, to read and write, then it fails me. I should know that I am slow learner. So I will take enough time for every stages until I finally can conclude. Handling lone project at a time may help not to complicate things in the process. So, finally Good Luck! I was trying to be serious but things just came randomly, it’s just random thoughts, nothings so structured, so let it be. Be it personal as it is.